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so jealous

Agree or disagree: honesty is overrated?
I’m not going to waste your time or mine on pithy excuses.
What matters is, I need to face the real reason why I haven’t been writing.
I’m squirming in my seat, embarrassed to admit this puerile-sounding fact so publicly.
I’m jealous of Violet; specifically, jealous of her amazing writing abilities.
My feelings aren’t [...]

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dirt sea

It makes perfect sense. If I don’t make plans with you, I’m sure not to disappoint.
I’m pulling my punches and trying not to telegraph my frustration and self-doubt. Why am I so bad at this?
I went to a wedding today. Someone said, “My advice about marriage: You’ll have the same fights over [...]

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dear abby

I always seem to end up here.
Why can’t boundaries be a place to begin the conversation?
Use I statements. Keep telling yourself that nobody else can hurt your feelings unless you let them. The truth is, that only works if you don’t let anyone else in.
Solitude is apt to shed its charms [...]

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Already missed


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good grief

I wish I could do something to fix this.
Make a casserole. Hook a scarf. Buy everyone dinner. Give her a hug. Bring her back.
As the youngest person there, I inadvertently became the center of attention. They toasted my pithy achievements a little too loudly. I blushed. [...]

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about fucking time.

Last Friday was a good day. I felt confident, energized, and playful.

Also, beautiful.

I know that the amount of bodily scrutiny and criticism I am subjected to to is trivial, compared to women of size. Nevertheless, the pressure to conform to the beauty standards is very real. I’m fucking tired [...]

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Word to your god

Apparently, there exists an inverse correlation between the sharpness of my snarkometer and the ambient temperature.
During my ride home from work today, I spotted two men in suits.
I looked at them a little more closely, wondering why they were dressed so formally in this heat. As soon as I figured it out (teh Mormoms, [...]

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caterpillars

Negative definitions are problematic, because they reify binaries; things should be defined by what they are, rather than by what they are not. Nevertheless, it’s pretty clear that I am not one of those people who divides their to-do list into projects and action items. Actually, I don’t have a to-do list. [...]

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